Crying for God
This morning I felt I had to go straight to the heart and reflect what is going on there. Maybe still a bit inconscient I replied an e-mail to a friend, regarding our help to the orphans of Bulamu Village. It was like God told me..just tell what is in your heart. Somehow I always feel like looking after other people in the first place, but God tells me now to just express my feelings. Earlier this week I received a prophecy that I take to much pain and problems of other people within my system, and I have to change this slight way of self-destruction...sometimes it makes me feel ill. It is very good to listen to the problems of others and give love, but not to keep it within. It is a very old pattern from my childhood, which enabled me to survive, but I really have to let it go. So I took some quiet time to listen to prophetic music of a friend of mine. I cried for God about my dad and half-sister and felt a short deep pain and felt that God took it away from me...I just cried a little bit and could let it go. This is how God is healing us in His Love for us. I am so happy He enables me to open up myself to let Him enter. This is something I can not do out of myself. Then He showed me many clouds behind my house...the past...but a blue open sky in front of it. I saw just a few clouds, like a face with hair, eyes and a mouth...When I look better I just see that the mouth also could be a bright white heart...holy and enlightened by the son (sun) Jesus Christ! By the way..the song of my friend which I listenéd too at that time is 'Open the heavens..we desire to see your glory..' I can confirm..We have an almighty God with a precious heart for us, like a dad to His children. Wow! The blessing rain with His healing power and glory is coming down right now! Praise Him!